How time flies. I couldn't believe that the year almost coming to an end in just a couple of months time. This means that it's about time for me to bid farewell to this year. Preparing myself to enter the next stage in my life. Come 2019, I am hoping to be more wise :'(
But I realize. No matter how I try to deny the "3 series", the time will definitely come. It's time to take careful steps in life and learning to be more independent. Growing up is tough but I shall just face the reality in life. It's about time to have a goal in life. Living with purpose. Appreciating my close ones.
At this stage of life, I began to realize who my real friends are. I always felt that having many friends is a secure feelings but I was wrong. It's about time to realize who are my true friends that sticks with me even in my worst time. With that I finally conclude that I was made clear who they really are. It's not the quantity of friends that matters but rather the qualities of great friends. What's the point of having thousands of friends but ended up as a "devil in disguise"?
It happened in my stage of life whereby I was being back stabbed by someone whom I regard as my "BFF" @ Best Friend Forever. Someone whom I really put my trust in. But due to jealousy, she ruined my life. I was frustrated with what she did to me. But I strongly believe in what goes around comes around. Whatever evil things she did to me, I believe that one day she will get back what she deserve. It was my biggest mistake in being too honest with her.
I was often being described as "naive" and too honest with everyone. Perhaps my kindness was being taken advantage of by others. But never mind. I am learning to forget about the past that hurt me. It's about time to move on and never look back. Honestly it was never easy to forget about the past. It was a total nightmare. But if I keep thinking about the past, my heart will never feel at ease. I am not even sure if I can forgive what she did to me. I tried too hard to forget but I couldn't. Sadly it's not easy to forgive what she did. It's too extreme for anyone that was in my situation to ever forgive someone like her.
Majority might think that I'm too kind and never take things to heart. But I'm just human. Once I'm hurt, I can never forget thus forgive. Yes pretty much stubborn. I am kind of an easy going that can tolerate all kinds of nonsense others did to me but once I lost my patience and hurt, I'm sorry but you are not forgiven!
It's about time for me to end this year with a purpose in life. I'm at the end of my 20's but still young at heart; "baby face".
