About Me (It's my longest entry)

Someone who is very simple but shy. Not much of a demand in life. I’m trying my best to be thankful for whatever is provided. I hope for a better life but would be glad if I could achieve something based on my own effort and hard work.

I’m not independent but hope to be able to stand on my own feet one day. I’m learning to be independent as day goes by. And that’s the hope which I put on everyday. It’s not easy and it’s impossible to change within a day but never say never. I should have a strong spirit that one day, I’ll be able to achieve success. No doubt, I still need help from the people around me regarding everyday life matters.

I always tell myself whatever I do, make sure that I’m in a right path. Never go astray. Everyday is a challenge and I hope to overcome it one day. Deal with it slowly, step by step. Don’t make a hast decisions. Face the fact. Life is never easy and pls stop complaining. Since life is short, appreciate it. Live life to the fullest while we still have the chance to do so. Try not to grumble.

It’s easier said than done but I reminded myself this, “when there’s a will, there’s definitely a way”. Just keep on the lookout & we’ll find the way.

MY PRINCIPLE(or wateva u called it)

I admit I’m not perfect and nobody does. This is reality. Never compare ourselves with others because we’ll never be able to compete. The best person to compete is ourselves. Know where we stand. Don’t bother what others said. We don’t owe anyone a living right? Take only the positive remarks. Ignore all those negative remarks.

WAITING

When it comes to waiting, I hate it. No one do. But sometimes I’ll just close one eye when I’m in a situation whereby I had no choice but to wait. But please…. Don’t make me wait for hours. I can be totally pissed off. However I’ll try to control my anger especially in public.

Throughout my life I’ve waited long enough. It ever happens when my friend had to wait for me. But hey, I did not do in on purpose. I had my reason for having you to wait. Something happened along the way. Since it’s urgent, I had to deal with it first. The longest waiting time that she had to wait for me is 15mins. I hope she understand after hearing my explanation. Some things are unavoidable. Sorry Meileng for making you wait unnecessarily. Pls don’t get angry with me. It makes me so guilty. But anyway, thanks for being such an understanding friend. Glad to have you as a friend.

My Favourites

I love chocolates, ice-creams.

Love it

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(credits to www.homeschoolingthemiddleyears.blogspot.com)

(credits to swensens)

Apart from food, I love writing. It's like a habit. If I'm in a mood to write, I'll definitely find some space to do it. On paper or via blogging. When in a mood, I can write up to 5 pages long in less than 2 hours. Yes, it's in the past while I'm still a student. For now, I kinda lack of inspiration to do so.

That's it about me. Other than that, I'll let others to judge.

It Inspire Me

October 1st entry

It's been about 3 1/2 months since I last blog. There's so many things that I wanna write down but I juz don't know how to and what to write. My mind is like a maze. It's all stuck up down here.

When May finally enters, I know that this is the time that I will be a year older. This year would be a special year as well as a sad moment for me. This year I'm 21 but I felt so unprepared. There's so many things that I'll need to endure.

I'm totally sad coz this year is the 1st year I'm celebrating my birthday without my mum. Although I'm not closed with her throughout her entire life, I still appreciate her as the woman who gave birth to me. Thank you for bringing me into this world. Without her, I won't be here today. I missed a motherly love.

When the waited day finally arrived, there's no celebration at all. No birthday cakes like it always do annually.Totally nothing. sERIOUSLY, i DON'T feel like celebrating it. Usually when someone turns 21, there will somehow have a so-called 21st birthday bash juz like what my mum sister used to tell me. They have a 21st birthday celebration organised by their parents. But unfortunately, I don't have a chance to experience that. But whatever it is, I'm thankful for whatever I have right now. Alhamdulillah.

The other reason for me feeling sad is that on the very same month, it will be one year in loving memory for my mum. How time flies real quick. I wanna show it to my mum that finally I make it for my exam. I may failed once but I don't wanna failed for the second time. Alhamdulillah, thank you allah for granting me my wish. My mum will definitely be happy if she knows about this when she's still around.

Walau apapun, takdir berkata lain. ALLAH lebih menyayanginya. Ajalnya telah pun tiba. Aku tak mampu berkata-kata lagi. Pasrah dan ikhlaskan segala yang telah terjadi. Aku percaya setiap kejadian pasti ada hikmahnya.

P.S.: I hope to be more wise, mature than before at this age. Hopefully. Dear Allah, pls guide me to the right path