Goodbye 2010

This would probably be my last and final entry for 2010. Without realising, 2010 is goina end within 24hrs. I'm sad that 2010 will leave soon. Everything seem so fast. 2010 remarks a most meaningful time in my life. As this year I'm entering my 21st stage of life. When I did a flash back on the past memories, I can't help but to shed a tear or more whenever I remember how my life have been through. I'd to admit, the path that I went through is never easy. I'm unsure how many times I cried within a year.

There's so many things that had happened. And everything that happened had both brought about sad and happy, unforgettable memories in my life. Even when I'm typing this, honestly, I felt like crying but I shall not cry or I shall interupt those who was already in their dreamland(asleep). I'm writing alone in the living room. The feeling to start writing suddenly happened. My writing seem to be unplanned and unorganised but let it be. i'M NOT writing an english composition but I'm writing something that came from my heart. So, any grammatical error should not be questioned.

21 a superb age at a pinnacle of a prime. It says that 21 is the time when someone really have to grown up especially in terms of mentality. At this age, I'm beginning to think about my future seriously. There's no more something called "playing time". Now it's the time to take things seriously. Theres so many worries in my mind. From the previous entry, I did mentioned what have been my most worries in mind. I did mentioned it many times. I'm goina mention it once more. Obviously I desperately need permanent job in order to survive.

I can't be depending on my aunt for daily needs especilly income. I feels guilty until now whenever I have to ask her to treat me over lunch etc... I know she always been sincere whenever she treat me over for food or daily needs. But at the same time, I know it's hard for her to keep providing everything for me. That urged me to get a job asap. But after trying for countless number of times and failed, I felt so miserable and frustrated. I'm just a normal human being whom can also feel tired and disappointed at times.

Deep inside, I always hope that I'll get the job that suits me. I don't wanna give up just yet. I'll continue asking Allah for his guidance. With guidance, I'm sure I'll be on the right path and never go astray. Just like the song, "don't despair never lose hope, cos Allah is always by ur side" Love that song.

Ive gained weight recently. Despite gaining about 2kg, it makes a difference in my appearance. I look chubbier day by day. I find it weird but nvm. As long I'm healthy and not overweight, I should be happy and less worries in mind. Ahah! There are more things to be worried about rather than this unimportant issue.

Alrites... I'll end this entry. I don't think I'm going to furter elaborate what I've went through throughout 2010. Otherwise, it's goina be a long, tedious and boring entry. Hahahah...
I'm typing while listening to the 1st song that i like frm Taiwanese singer 183 club


I'm so gonna ♥♥♥♥ it

My 21st Celebration

I know it's Christmas but I spent the day celebrating my birthday. It's a mini celebration with the main key is the "birthday cake". It's special cos it's a key-shape cake. I love the newly designed cake. I'll try to post some pics or even videos if it's possible. Hopefully... Uploading pics failed to upload so I'll just insert a very short 4secs video on my favourite newly designed cake specially for the 21st... Ahah :) I recorded a one minute video on the entire table but it failed to upload. So I'm just left with the 4secs video available.

Thanks to the lovely family for making this possible. My main focus is just the cake as mentioned earlier. I really want to have my very own 21st cake. I'm lucky cos it's the new design for 2010 by Prima Deli. It's very soft and yummy. I'll try to upload the pics somehow if possible. That's it for now. I'm leaving.. Chiao :)

I'm so gonna ♥♥♥♥ it

I'm TIRED!!!

I'm TIRED!!! Exhausted & I really mean what I said... I wanna have a peaceful sleep but I juz couldn't get it. Why is it so hard 4 me 2 take a rest? My body are extremely tired but I juz couln't get myself to sleep. I wana sleep for atleast a straight 6hours minimum but to achieve that is such an impossible thing to do..

Juz like today, i spent almost the whole day walking around, sight seeing around Orchard area in hoping that I could get tired & manage to sleep at night but it never work!

What I saw at Orchard during christmas eve. As normal christmas deoration and trees. One thing that capture my attention is actually the giant Ferero Rocher displayed somewhat as a christmas tree. Well, I didn't take any pics cos its crowded and the weather s kinda hot. I can't stand it & decide to leave Orchard area & went to other places for a stroll,

I did all these to make myself tired & able to sleep at night. Well the main reason I went there actually to pass by time, juz wanna check out if there's any festive shopping sale(I'll juz window shop bcos I'm not working). DISCOUNT!! Everybody love SALE, DISCOUNT! Ah hah!

That's it for tonite. Goina end my entry for now. I'l be back if I'm in a mood to write a.k.a not lazy. Depends if theres anitin interesting 2 talk about.

My New "Favourite" for December

I'm so gonna ♥♥♥♥ it

Speed (1994)

Speed (1994)
the url



My Favourite Movie of All-Time
I'm so gonna ♥♥♥♥ it

It Caught My Attention

PS: It's supposed to be my Oct entry but just update now

I'm totally mesmerized...

Previously, I've never really or ever idolised an islamic songs,icon or singer or whatever you called it. But until one day,... By co-incidence, I heard a song which it's melody caught my attention. Then I've started to wonder. What song is it and who sang it? My search brings me to this. I found out that it's a song entitled "Insha Allah" sung by a swedish-lebanese singer Maher Zain.



The lyrics that the composer is trying to portray captured my attention. The meaning totally reached out to my heart instantly. never before in my life that a song had a significant impact on me. It's the first islamic song that had ever touched my heart.

With this kind of music, that actually makes me crave for more of the same type of music. Bcos this is the type of melody that shall never get bored listening to. Despite listening to Maher Zain songs countless number of times, I never get bored with it. Perhaps something which came from the heart will give out a significant impact on others and in this case, the listeners. The lyrics are simple to digest and it seems so sincere.

To date, Maher Zain fans had grown to a total of 1 million and still growing. It's the first time in islamic music that had happened. Within a year from 2009-2010, his fans from facebook had grown from thousands to millions. That's a superb achievement that had ever happened. His the first islamic artiste in the world to achieved that place.

I managed to grab a copy of his album last month(nov) at JB. I'm not sure if his album were sold here but in JB it's much more cheaper selling at RM 27.90. I saw his album sold in Sg Expo but the price is about $21+++. Of course I shall get the cheaper one if it's of the same quality. Just to show my support for islamic music.

What's the best thing about it is of course it's in English and not in other language such as arabic which I don't understand. It's a language that was understood worldwide and now I know why his fans reached out to 1,000,000 +++++ fans worldwide.

He was in Malaysia for his album showcase in recently between September to October. His album showcase is 2 days in October(can't remember the dates). He went back home right after the showcase.

Hopefully there's more of this kind of music in the future with new young talents. I'm ending with this. "Thank You Allah" an album worth to buy.>

Insomnia Striking

I've been wanting to blog since many yesterday's but I realised that I'll always procrastinating repeatedly. Can't manage my time fruitfully. Internet connection slacking nowadays. That totally puts me off to even begin writing in my blog. I'd rather prioritised the important things that's urgent than the least important ones.

For me job search comes first. Been searching everywhere, internet, papers and even through recruitment firms.. None of them shows results. Patience is required here & yes I really mean what I said. Patience, extreme patience.

As the title says, "Insomnia Striking". Yes, I've been experience this quite a lot. Not quite but actually it have been accumulating over the years. Am I using the right word, "accumulating"? Whatever.. Duh! Insomnia come and go. My eyes are tired, body needs a rest but my brain told my eyes not to sleep... Close my eyes but I still hear sounds around me.

I'm writing now in the wee hours while everyone is sleeping soundly. Hopefully after completing this entry, I might able to get some sleep. Hopefully cos after that I can finally says "Like finally... I can sleep in peace.. Yay...

It should be it for now but I'm not done yet. Wait a minute... I'll end my entry for insomnia but not for the rest of unwritten topics. I'll definitely be back soon bcos writing is the only way for me to expressed myself....

P.S: It may seems that I'm writing all about my personal life BUT pls take note of this, I'll never want to mention something about my family members which may seem too personal to be discussed and be discovered by an unknown passerby reader. Yes I'm wriing about my personal life but I shall not expose the identity of my family members. That's way too personal. Sorry if I seemed unreasonable but I respect their(my family) opinion.

Hang Out With An Old Frend

Saturday which is yesterday, I spent almost the whole day with my long-time friend, an ex-secondary school classmate Meileng. I can't decide of a place to meet up and finally made Orchard as our destination. I shall call this "Explore Orchard Rd". Although not much of exploration is done.

We had lunch at Far East Sakura Thai.

Here's our lunch

After lunch, we went sight-seeing around Orchard. Exploring the shopping outlets around. ION Orchard: Window shop for shoes & clothing. Just looking around without making any purchase. Tour around and then decided to leave the place onto our next destination. Tampines. We do our normal window shopping and the normal walking around. As we soon to felt tired, we approach Pastamania for dinner despite feeling not so hungry. It's crowded but managed to get a place to settle down for dinner. I did not manage to take any pic bcos I don't have a proper camera.

We soon head to Tampines One as I crave for donuts. MeIleng told me there's one donut shop down there so I decided to purchase a dozen of donuts from J.CO.. We went back home after that. All feeling exhausted in the bus. Took a pic in the bus when it's not so crowded. I'm a pic maniac. I love taking photos. Ahaha :) I'm ending this entry for now.

I'm so gonna ♥♥♥♥ it

About Me (It's my longest entry)

Someone who is very simple but shy. Not much of a demand in life. I’m trying my best to be thankful for whatever is provided. I hope for a better life but would be glad if I could achieve something based on my own effort and hard work.

I’m not independent but hope to be able to stand on my own feet one day. I’m learning to be independent as day goes by. And that’s the hope which I put on everyday. It’s not easy and it’s impossible to change within a day but never say never. I should have a strong spirit that one day, I’ll be able to achieve success. No doubt, I still need help from the people around me regarding everyday life matters.

I always tell myself whatever I do, make sure that I’m in a right path. Never go astray. Everyday is a challenge and I hope to overcome it one day. Deal with it slowly, step by step. Don’t make a hast decisions. Face the fact. Life is never easy and pls stop complaining. Since life is short, appreciate it. Live life to the fullest while we still have the chance to do so. Try not to grumble.

It’s easier said than done but I reminded myself this, “when there’s a will, there’s definitely a way”. Just keep on the lookout & we’ll find the way.

MY PRINCIPLE(or wateva u called it)

I admit I’m not perfect and nobody does. This is reality. Never compare ourselves with others because we’ll never be able to compete. The best person to compete is ourselves. Know where we stand. Don’t bother what others said. We don’t owe anyone a living right? Take only the positive remarks. Ignore all those negative remarks.

WAITING

When it comes to waiting, I hate it. No one do. But sometimes I’ll just close one eye when I’m in a situation whereby I had no choice but to wait. But please…. Don’t make me wait for hours. I can be totally pissed off. However I’ll try to control my anger especially in public.

Throughout my life I’ve waited long enough. It ever happens when my friend had to wait for me. But hey, I did not do in on purpose. I had my reason for having you to wait. Something happened along the way. Since it’s urgent, I had to deal with it first. The longest waiting time that she had to wait for me is 15mins. I hope she understand after hearing my explanation. Some things are unavoidable. Sorry Meileng for making you wait unnecessarily. Pls don’t get angry with me. It makes me so guilty. But anyway, thanks for being such an understanding friend. Glad to have you as a friend.

My Favourites

I love chocolates, ice-creams.

Love it

credits to freethingstodoindenver.com)

(credits to www.homeschoolingthemiddleyears.blogspot.com)

(credits to swensens)

Apart from food, I love writing. It's like a habit. If I'm in a mood to write, I'll definitely find some space to do it. On paper or via blogging. When in a mood, I can write up to 5 pages long in less than 2 hours. Yes, it's in the past while I'm still a student. For now, I kinda lack of inspiration to do so.

That's it about me. Other than that, I'll let others to judge.

It Inspire Me

October 1st entry

It's been about 3 1/2 months since I last blog. There's so many things that I wanna write down but I juz don't know how to and what to write. My mind is like a maze. It's all stuck up down here.

When May finally enters, I know that this is the time that I will be a year older. This year would be a special year as well as a sad moment for me. This year I'm 21 but I felt so unprepared. There's so many things that I'll need to endure.

I'm totally sad coz this year is the 1st year I'm celebrating my birthday without my mum. Although I'm not closed with her throughout her entire life, I still appreciate her as the woman who gave birth to me. Thank you for bringing me into this world. Without her, I won't be here today. I missed a motherly love.

When the waited day finally arrived, there's no celebration at all. No birthday cakes like it always do annually.Totally nothing. sERIOUSLY, i DON'T feel like celebrating it. Usually when someone turns 21, there will somehow have a so-called 21st birthday bash juz like what my mum sister used to tell me. They have a 21st birthday celebration organised by their parents. But unfortunately, I don't have a chance to experience that. But whatever it is, I'm thankful for whatever I have right now. Alhamdulillah.

The other reason for me feeling sad is that on the very same month, it will be one year in loving memory for my mum. How time flies real quick. I wanna show it to my mum that finally I make it for my exam. I may failed once but I don't wanna failed for the second time. Alhamdulillah, thank you allah for granting me my wish. My mum will definitely be happy if she knows about this when she's still around.

Walau apapun, takdir berkata lain. ALLAH lebih menyayanginya. Ajalnya telah pun tiba. Aku tak mampu berkata-kata lagi. Pasrah dan ikhlaskan segala yang telah terjadi. Aku percaya setiap kejadian pasti ada hikmahnya.

P.S.: I hope to be more wise, mature than before at this age. Hopefully. Dear Allah, pls guide me to the right path

Half of 2010 Nearly Gone

Without realising, it had already past the sixth month of 2010. Half a year had past anf the sixth moth June will sooon come to an end. I'd had to say goodbye to the month of June.

Throughout half of the year, a lot of things had happened. Been through a lot lately. 2010 marks a significance year of my life as this is the year that I turned 21. The stage that I am entering the adulthood.

But if I were ask whether I felt like an adult? The answer is "NO". I'm still the same person or rather the same simple girl next door.

1st Hang Out For The Year

Our Lunch

Root Beer Float

Pesto Salmon Saute

Chili Crab Pasta

Cookies & cream ice-cream cake

Thanks Meileng for the Swensen's treat and the ice-cream cakes.
I'm so gonna ♥♥♥♥ it

1st Entry for the Year

It's been almost a while since I last blog. To be excact, it's been 3 months. I wanna blog but sometimes I just felt too lazy to sign in then proceed to start writing. But no doubt, writing has been my hobby since young. I used to keep diary where I will express myself out through that medium.

Honestly, I prefer to hand write rather than blogging. But keeping an "unlocked" diary is dangerous. Bcos it's prone to be exposed to the public/strangers whom we wish not to reveal our secrets to. That's why I choose this method. My identity will not be exposed if I do not tell friends regarding this. I can even restrict my blog. That's why I love it.

I've learnt not to reveal any personal entry. Nevertheless, my life is not for public consumption. I'll not reveal anything that's too personal. Not to anyone even my close ones. Bcos the best secrets to tell to is to God.,Allah SWT. It's the most trusted source. Even close ones can betray us but God will never do that. It's better to be safe than sorry.

Actually I have no idea what I'm going to write about. Last week I finally discovered that KCB 1 & KCB 2 had been uploaded on Youtube. Yey... I can finally watch both of the films. Done watching that film. Love the storyline. Movie with islamic values. I'll talk more abt it at my next entry but posted on the same day, today. I'll just break my entry into 2 parts.