Friday, August 24, 2012

Eid Mubarak 1433H

Hope it's not too late....

It's been a while since I last blog. Here's wishing all fellow Muslim's Eid Mubarak! 1st Syawal falls on Sunday, 19 August 2012.



Salam lebaran kepada semua umat islam yang melawati blog ini. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin terutama sekali kepada mereka yang mengenali diri ini.



Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Intifada - Rabbani





♥ this song. Perhaps it's the only "nasyid" song that I enjoy listening to. It's been ages & I'm still loving this.

*Walaupun lagu ini dalam bahasa melayu, tetapi tertulis pulak dalam bahasa Ingeris.

Friday, July 20, 2012

Ramadan Mubarak 1433H

Finally Ramadan is here! ♥ Let's embrace it together. Alhamdulillah we manage to witness this holy month once again :) 

Fasting begins tomorrow :) 

Ramadan @ 29 Days: 21 July - 18 August 2012

Ramadan 1433H




I am not sure if the frequency in updating my blog will be the same like last year. I tend to slow down especially during the fasting month. Perhaps the same thing will happen this year? I have no idea. I can't have a final say. Only time will decide.

Till the next update. Cherio peeps!

To all fellow Muslim's, here's wishing everyone a bless Ramadan. 


I ♥ MY LIFE :)

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

3 Days to Ramadhan


Didn't realize time flies this quick. 3 more days & we shall embrace ramadan, the month full of blessings. What could be more happier & meaningful than this. The month of the year that all fellow Muslim's have been waiting for, finally approaching. 

I love the atmosphere during Ramadan. It feels so blissful & bless. I can't find words to describe it. I may not be someone who knows Islamic's law in details but I am happy/excited whenever Ramadan is approaching. 

I include the Prayers Time during Ramadan


Highlighted ones are the "break-fast" time in Singapore


                                                         

               


I ♥ MY LIFE :)

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Irritating Noise

I'm totally irritated with this current noise (construction drilling) from my neighbour upstairs! It started since early morning. Due to that my mind is unable to function actively. Totally disturbed by this annoying noise. At the point I'm typing this, that irritating drilling noise is still blasting out loud! For goodness sake, please stop! My ear drums felt as if it's going to explode.

This is driving me crazy! Seriously.... Feels like leaving the house for a short while but I have no destination to go. I guess I'll have to bear with the noise till the end of the day.

Another frustrating day :(




                                             

Monday, June 11, 2012

Hand Written Thoughts - What Do They Depicts?

Instead of typing out my thoughts, I decided to have them written down. (Trying to do something different from usual.) Nothing lengthy but a very short one. Honestly I think that my handwriting had changed over the 7 years. After not writing for years, this is the result.

It says that handwriting depicts personality. So, what does my handwriting reveal about my personality? I cannot judge handwriting. I need an expert to judge that. Anyone?  Hehe...

All thoughts written in an A4 size paper that's been divided into 4 parts


Written in ball point pen:
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Even if f I don't put on a smile, never judge that I'm an "arrogant" individual. I admit that I am a rather quiet girl but I'm very much approachable to anyone. Start the conversation and I will do the same. You will never know if you never try. Though at times, I felt that I always got nothing to talk about. I can be a good listener since I talk less.

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Written in permanent marker:
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I ♥ MY LIFE :)

Friday, June 8, 2012

So Soon

You left so soon even before I could "stand on my own feet" and understand the true purpose/meaning of life  :'(


It's amazing on how we could relate a song to our real life experience... I often did that!


http://youtu.be/sXN7PjP08To


So Soon


Every time I close my eyes I see you in front of me
I still can hear your voice calling out my name
And I remember all the stories you told me

I miss the time you were around (x2)
But I’m so grateful for every moment I spent with you
‘Cause I know life won’t last forever


Chorus:

You went so soon, so soon
You left so soon, so soon
I have to move on ’cause I know it’s been too long

I’ve got to stop the tears, keep my faith and be strong
I’ll try to take it all, even though it’s so hard
I see you in my dreams but when I wake up you are gone
Gone so soon

Night and day, I still feel you are close to me
And I remember you in every prayer that I make
Every single day may you be shaded by His mercy

But life is not the same, and it will never be the same
But I’m so thankful for every memory I shared with you
‘Cause I know this life is not forever


>CHORUS

There were days when I had no strength to go on
I felt so weak and I just couldn’t help asking: “Why?”
But I got through all the pain when I truly accepted
That to God we all belong, and to Him we’ll return, ooh


>CHORUS

Lyrics: Bara Kherigi, Maher Zain & Mohamed El-Kazaz
Melody & Arrangement: Maher Zain
Mixing: Ronny Lahti





I ♥ MY LIFE :)

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Buatku Disana

Buatku Disana 

Sering harungi sendiri kekurangan diri
Hanya tuhan mengerti
Tak mengharap sang cinta mahupun dicinta
Umpama tiada rahsia

Kau sinar hati ini
Biarpun hanya sesaat di sisi
Pelita kala hati berduka
Kau hulurkan oh tanganmu kala hilang arah


Masihkan hadir jua menepis gelora
Tak kala aku merasa kecewa
Duniaku berubah kelam tak bermakna
Namun semangatmu ada dijiwa


Harapan kau beri cintamu bersemi
Air mataku tak bisa menitis
Kau nafas akhirku
Kau yang dihati

Usah menangis sendiri sayang ku kan pergi
Senyumlah usah meratapi
Kala ada masa kita ditakdir yang Esa
Cukuplah buatku disana

Kau sinar hati ini
Biarpun hanya sesaat di sisi
Pelita kala hati berduka
Kau hulurkan oh tanganmu kala hilang arah

Ohhh

Aku bagai bintang menghiasi alam maya
Meninggalkan kilau tanpa sinar yang bercahya
Detik percintaan persis satu anugerah
Aku pinta hanya bercinta

Masihkan hadir jua menepis gelora
Tak kala aku merasa kecewa
Duniaku berubah kelam tak bermakna
Namun semangatmu ada dijiwa

Harapan kau beri cintamu bersemi
Air mataku tak bisa menitis
Kau nafas akhirku
Kau yang dihati 

Ohh.. huu




I ♥ MY LIFE :)

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Just Another Day

Arms injury :(  What a day in my life...

 I'm not complaining but just telling myself to accept what just happened. I must stay strong no matter what happen...

 But I can't deny that it hurts. Bruises hurts too although not a sharp pain. Got ém while moving around outdoors & it just happened! I only realized those bruises when I get bck home.

That's it for now. Gd nite peeps! I'm off to LaLa Land :)

About to switch off my mobile phone & stop surfing é internet. My hp battery running low due to all these blogging & web surfing.


I ♥ MY LIFE :)

Friday, June 1, 2012

Little Nur's Only Hope Is A New Heart

 Little Nur's only hope is a new heart



Front Page of Berita Harian this morning 1st June.(Credits to https://www.facebook.com/events/229228250522351/)
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Let's do our part and share this with the rest. A little goes a long way. Let's give little Nur a new hope of life. USD$200,000 needed By June 8, 2012.
My heart goes out to her. Our prayers are with you. Stay strong Little Nur!

Online Donation:



Related Articles:

By Daryl Yam

The New Paper
Friday, May 25, 2012

When The New Paper visited Madam Norleen Osman's one-room flat in Ang Mo Kio a week ago, the child sleeping in the middle of the room started to cry.

When Madam Norleen, 33, propped up the little girl on her lap for the interview, she would not stop screaming.

The housewife felt the need to apologise on her only daughter's behalf. She and her 28-year-old husband also have three sons, aged 16, 14 and one.

"I'm sorry," she said. "She's on morphine right now. She's very cranky."

Four-year-old Adlea Ry'Kyla Muhammad Ghazali, known affectionately by her loved ones as Nur, was diagnosed with myocarditis in 2010, when she was admitted into KK Women's and Children's Hospital (KKH) for vomiting blood.

Myocarditis, simply put, is an inflammation of the heart, commonly caused by a viral infection. (See report on facing page.)

Nur was just a year and seven months old then.

Now, only "six per cent" of her heart is still functioning.
The stark truth facing her parents: Unless Nur gets a new heart soon, she will die.

Said Madam Norleen: "The doctors aren't even talking about years or months. They're talking about weeks."

Nur's only hope is a heart transplant in a country where paediatric heart transplants are not available.

Associate professor Wong Keng Yean, senior consultant of KKH's cardiology service in the department of paediatric subspecialties, told TNP that there is currently "no heart transplant programme for children as young as Nur available in Singapore".

Complications

To complicate matters, her heart inflammation has caused her kidneys to deteriorate, which in turn has caused her abdomen to bloat until her tummy is now twice its normal size.
When Madam Norleen tried to help us photograph Nur's bare stomach, the little girl objected tearfully.

She was so distressed by her condition that she kept pushing her dress down to conceal the tube underneath that is attached to the side of her body.
Every morning and evening, Madam Norleen would remove the plaster around the tube, unscrew the tube and then insert a syringe to drain out the yellow fluid collected in Nur's stomach.
The little girl's bloated stomach, pressed against her other organs, also causes her to suffer from breathlessness, severe pain and a regular fever.

As if this was not enough suffering, she also has a wound on her right foot, the result of a doctor's attempt to attach a drip.

The wound, which became infected, oozes pus.

Nur is now on a daily cocktail of diuretics, morphine and heart medication, and a diet of rice and soup with as little salt as possible.

Said Madam Norleen: "Anything she eats, she will throw up. But she likes chilli a lot and curry too.
"When she was hospitalised at KKH, the nurses even had to add a little curry to her food as a special order."

As Madam Norleen gave Nur a container with a small amount of tomato ketchup, the little girl stopped crying.

"Look at her," her mother said. "She can't resist anything red."

Nur dipped her index finger into the container and licked the ketchup on it.

But soon after, she began protesting again, prompting Madam Norleen to place a container underneath Nur's chin.

Making a few heaving noises, Nur threw up some orange fluid.

During our hour-long interview, she threw up two more times - and all she had had was the ketchup.

With Nur's condition deteriorating rapidly, Madam Norleen's is becoming more desperate for a heart transplant to save her daughter.

She and her husband have sent applications to various hospitals overseas.

They received their first reply on May 6 from the Royal Children's Hospital (RCH) in Melbourne, Australia.

The hospital acknowledged receipt of their application and asked for Nur's scans and medical reports to be sent to them.

They also gave a quotation of A$85,000 (S$107,000) for the expected cost of the heart transplant surgery and treatment at the hospital.

Madam Norleen, whose husband earns $2,200 a month working as a security officer, was worried about how they would raise the money.

But bad news followed when she received an e-mail from RCH last Friday telling her that the hospital is "unable to offer heart transplantation to overseas patients".
The next day, Nur - who had been suffering from breathlessness, jaundice and vomiting - had to be re-admitted into KKH and was warded over the weekend.

Her foot infection has also worsened.

Prof Wong explained that it is "very difficult to set up drips for patients such as Nur due to the severe swelling from heart failure and limited drip access sites".

Dr Arjandas Mahadev, head and senior consultant of KKH's department of orthopaedic surgery, said:
"This infection is a known risk when setting an intravenous line, and may spread in situations of general poor health and immunity."

Last Monday, Nur underwent a two-hour procedure to excise the infected tissue on her foot. She is now warded in the hospital's intensive care unit.

But an e-mail from the Boston Children's Hospital in the US acknowledging receipt of Nur's scans and medical reports has given Madam Norleen another glimmer of hope.

"I just hope she stays strong," she said.
"She's a fighter, I can see."

darylyam@sph.com.sg

This article was first published in The New Paper .




Extract from Facebook:


Little Nur needs your help.

Here's the link to the ChipIn page for our little Nur;

http://littlenurheartfund.chipin.com/

Our goal is to raise USD$200,000 for Little Nur's Heart transplant operation.

TO MAKE YOUR CONTRIBUTION:

If you would like to use online payment system (debit/credit cards -- visa/mastercard/amex/discover) please go here >
http://littlenurheartfund.chipin.com/

If you prefer to use bank to bank transfer (ibanking) or cash deposits, please deposit your donation to >

POSB SAVINGS: 247-587-853
(This is a joint account of Nur's parents for the purpose of collecting public's monies for Little Nur's Heart Fund. The same account is being used to collect monies from other charity bodies/organizations/individual donors).

After you made your deposit in the POSB savings account, please sms Mariani at 96446133 with your name, tel no, amount donated and reference number of the transfer so that she can take note and check with Norleen (Nur's mom) to confirm payment is received. Please keep a print copy of your contribution for your own records.

And do share the above information with your family and friends on social networks like Facebook to solicit their participation in this donation drive.

May God bless you for helping us help Little Nur... Thank you, everyone.

Please note that this is an online donation drive... we're not meeting anywhere on June 8th. June 8th is the date we have set to end this donation drive. Little Nur is in pain right now and all we have is two weeks to make a difference.


If you have not read Little Nur's story, here it is... taken from http://www.tnp.sg/content/girl-4-has-weeks-live-unless-she-can-get-heart-transplant

For your reading convenience, a transcription of the entire newspaper article can be found here: http://bit.ly/MJatYX

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When The New Paper visited Madam Norleen Osman’s one-room flat in Ang Mo Kio last week, the child sleeping in the middle of the room started to cry. Then she started to scream.

The housewife, 33, felt the need to apologise on her four-year-old daughter’s behalf. "She’s on morphine right now. She’s very cranky,” she said.

Her daughter, Adlea Ry’Kyla Muhammad Ghazali (above), known as Nur, has myocarditis - a rare heart condition. As a result, her kidneys have deteriorated and she has a bloated abdomen, which presses against other organs, causing breathlessness, severe pain and fever.

The only hope for Nur is a new heart, but there is no heart transplant programme here for children as young as Nur.

Now, her parents are looking overseas to try and get her a heart transplant.

For your reading convenience, a transcription of the entire newspaper article can be found here: http://bit.ly/MJatYX
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According to Mdm Norleen (Nur's mother), the doctors at KKH said that there is almost "no-hope" for Little Nur to survive. They said she has less than a month to live.

Well, we are not going to set an expiry date on this poor child or say that Nur has "no-hope" to live, but we need your help.

FUNDRAISING TEAM MEMBERS:
Fund/ Project Managers: Rima McDonald & Mariani Ismail
Hospital Liaison: Siti J. Ahmad-Rudebaugh
Media Relations: Manja (fb nick: Mad Closet Collections)
Marketing Executive: Elmiza (fb nick: Nurul Eriana Elmiza)
Event Coordinator: Saharuddin Abd Jalil (from Lovehunters)
Tele-amal Operators:
Emil Rajab - Bios Life Franchise Owner (Singapore)
Seedah - creative director/owner of Izzy's Craftz
Mdm Twister - entertainer/balloon sculptor for parties
Erin Zulkifli - makeup artist from Make-up Syndicate
Watie Misty - makeup artist from Watie Misty INC
Aidah - owner of Hijab Matters


We are looking for volunteers to help Saha manage upcoming public concert for Little Nur. Please PM Rima McDonald if you're interested to join our Event Management team under Saha's direction.

Saha, drummer of Lovehunters, is coordinating the charity concert for us featuring top notch local artists and bands. I'm sure he needs more helping hand. Yes, we got permit underway and to be collected in the next few days :D

This is what we can think of right now, as we need more help, we'll post it here.

Meantime, any suggestions/ comments is very much encouraged in here. We are hoping to receive support from philanthropic bodies around the world, so let's try to post information about this effort in English so that they too can know what's going on with Little Nur and how to help.

Thanks for taking the time to read this and probably thinking about how to help. We're running out of time, so we don't have time to plan fundraising events/ projects... but just a donation drive like this.

We look forward to have your support, everyone.

Yours,
Rima McDonald

Thursday, May 24, 2012

I'll Find My Way

Today marks the 3rd Rejab in the islamic calender. That means in less than 2 months, Ramadhan will "visit" us soon. The holy month, full of blessings. Ramadhan on the way :)

Deep down in my heart I had this feeling of uneasiness. At times I couldn't help but to feel useless with myself. I felt guilty for neglecting my duties as a Muslim. Have I gone astray? Remorseful? Is that what I'm feeling right now? It always came to my mind that I should "repent" before it's too late. But I tend to procrastinate.

Thinking about death freak me out. When night fall and when I wake up, I felt relieved that I am still alive. When it's dark, I get scared thinking of death. "Aku takut akan siksaan kubur"...  It's a total darkness inside the grave. I will be alone awaiting to be judge by the " angels" on duty regarding my "good deeds"(amalan sewaktu hidup) and whatever I have done throughout my lifetime. I will be question. There's no way to run or anyone to help. It's just between me and the almighty.

Dear Allah please forgive all my sins towards you and the rest.


I Believe I'll Find My Way:

I felt restless and useless. Apart from the religious reason stated above, there's another reasons that leads to my frustration. I have to admit I get frustrated with my life. With all the things that I went through, I'm just pissed off. One after another. But to think back in a clear state of mind, I shouldn't feel that way. Life has never been on a smooth ride. Life is like a spinning wheel. Filled with ups and down.

When there's a will, there's a way. Frustration after failure is unavoidable. But I cannot let my emotions control over my life. I believe there's a reason behind everything that happened. Ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian.

Whenever I think of giving up, I remembered this lyrics. Thank you Maher Zain for inspiring me and the rest with your music. I was touched by the lyrics!

" Don't despair and never lose hope coz Allah is always by your side"





21,105,930 views on Youtube within 2 years! Congrats!







Insya Allah

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost

And That you're so alone

All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can't see which way to go

Don't despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Chorus:
Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah you'll find your way
Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah you'll find your way

Every time you commit one more mistake
You feel you can't repent
And that it's way too late
You're so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame
But don't despair and never lose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah you'll find your way
Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah you'll find your way

Turn to Allah
He's never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray

OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don't let me go astray
You're the only one who can show me the way
Show me the way [x3]

Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah we'll find our way

Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah we'll find our way

Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah we'll find our way

Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah we'll find our way
Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah we'll find our way
Insha Allah [x2]
Insha Allah we'll find our way

 http://www.metrolyrics.com/insha-allah-lyrics-maher-zain.html#ixzz1vnCd11tT 
Copied from MetroLyrics.com






 I ♥ MY LIFE :)

p.s.: I still have a few pending post in my drafts. Half way through in completing them. I have an entry regarding "mummy's day". Still in a process of gathering photos of my gorgeous mum ;)
I think it shall be posted next month. I'm quite "tide up" this month. Busy running some errands...

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Random Quotes Of The Day

Random Quotes of the Day ; Taken from various twitter accounts that I followed. I may also include quotes that I came across along the way. Just for sharing! Sharing is Caring!

Learn from your past, move on, grow stronger. People are fake, but let your trust last longer. Do what you got to do, but always stay true.

I think I’ve finally come to the point in my life where I’m happy with myself & I don’t have to change for people to like me anymore. 

I like this quote:
"Self-praise is for losers. Be a winner. Stand for something. Always have class, and be humble." - John Madden






 I MY LIFE :)

Friday, May 18, 2012

Random Quotes of é Day

"Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact." - William James

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Is Being Single a Problem?

Seriously, I get tired of this! I was often bombarded with this type of question. Of many other questions they can ask, why mention regarding relationship status? And the list goes on.

So nice of them... After not seeing one another for quite sometime, the first question that pop up is status? Is it that important for them to know? Obviously they will be invited if the time have come for me to settle down. So why is there a need of asking all these continuously?

This happen especially during wedding receptions I attended and even during my meet up with friends and previous colleagues from the past.

The FAQ:
"When is your turn girl?"
"Come on girl, at your current age don't tell me you're still unattached? Don't hide your status..."
"Are you being choosy?"
"I have friends whose interested to get to know you. They notice you the other day during the gathering. Want me to introduce them to you?" They can be very direct in asking me right away!

Pls stop!

Why should I hide? I have already said once, twice that I am currently single. Why can't they just believe what I've said! That's their problem if they choose not to believe. Irritating you see!

I'm not being choosy. But I feel like perhaps it's not time for me to be more open about myself to strangers. I have not met someone that I feel he's the one. I'm somehow reserved? Yes, I'm rather quiet and reserved to strangers or acquaintance.

Fine, some friends of my age are already married and welcome their first new born baby. The rest are either engaged, currently in a relationship and there's even a few who is unattached like me. There's even some who are currently pursuing their studies in the universities.

Please for once, stop asking me all that! You are making me stress. Relationship is not my current priority. I have others that I prioritize in my life. But I will not reject if at any point of time I meet someone that manage to open my heart in acceptance of his love.

Being Single?


Advantages being single: I'm not tied up with any commitments so that means I have more time on my own to achieve my goals and dreams in life. More time with family and friends.

I don't see a problem in being single? It's a matter on how you carry out yourself. I'm happy with my life. Just take the positive side. Perhaps it's not the time yet for me to meet that "someone". I strongly believe that if it's meant to be, it shall be. True love will come one day. It's just a matter of time. There's not a need to rush and chase love. Just go with the flow. True love will find it's way.

For once, I'm not even 25. Please don't rush me out. I hate when ask of the target age to settle down. To me, Age is not a measure of maturity. Only time can define maturity.

 I MY LIFE :)

Friday, May 11, 2012

Recruitment Drive

Yesterday I went for a recruitment drive at Toa Payoh Biz Hub 3. It was an event conducted by Service Connections, a recruitment agency. I came to know about this event from NECDC.

I was among the first 20 to arrive at the venue. I came at 10:35am but somehow couldn't find my way to the lift lobby. I ended up walking around the HDB Hub. I even went up at the wrong lobby and ended up in the wrong place. There's actually 2 CDC office located at the Biz Hub. That's the reason why I get confused. I did not pay attention to the lift lobby no but only the building name which is Biz Hub 3. I went straight up as soon as I saw the CDC office stated at the board listings. I know it's my mistake for not paying close attention to the details.

I went in the room and was given a form to fill in my particulars etc... My queue no is 12. It was quite fast. I only need to wait for about less than an hour before my number is called out. There was 2 recruitment consultants conducting the interview sitting next to one another. For me, it was not really an interview. It was rather a "pre-screen" conducted by the consultant to match the suitable job for the job seekers. I was told that I need to wait a bit longer before they contact me. Another waiting time! Sigh...

I have been through a lot of these with different kind of recruitment agencies all this while. S.C. just add to number of agencies I've registered to. Sometimes I still feel tired will all of these.  I know it requires hard work and determination to achieve success. But after many failures, I can't avoid the feeling of disappointment and frustration.

Rejected even before trying. I never get selected for any interviews. Perhaps I lack effort in my applications. I admit I don't apply for jobs daily. Sometimes it just happens that when I log into the job portals, there's nothing that suits me. When that happens, I get frustrated and stop job search immediately. Focus is what I need but it's difficult to control my mood.

The seniors was saying to me  that it will not be difficult for me to get a job as I am still very young. But the struggle during the searching process is tiring and frustrating for me. It's not a matter of age but a matter of determination,confidence and luck. I lack confidence especially when I have to communicate with the rest. I wish I had the confidence in me. How I wish I could...



I wasn't feeling too well today. The season of flu have just begin! I have to cancel all the appointments I had for today. Feel so bad about it. Will need to re-schedule everything. Just another day in my life. Falling sick is unavoidable these days.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Abusive Mum

Just for sharing...

I get a shock of my life upon watching this video. I can't believe a mum who gave birth to this poor baby have the heart to treat her baby like this. It's way too cruel & inhuman. Even an animal love their new offspring.

The poor baby was beaten, thrown with a remote, pinch and kick! Brutal sia!


The mum was arrested and imprisonment for 18 months. This video is circulating via facebook according to PDRM(Polis Di Raja Malaysia) Malaysian Police Force. Finally few uploader began to reupload the video in youtube.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

A Year Older

Can't believe I am already a year older! Can still be consider as "young" though. I describe myself as a teenager whom have just started to enter the adult stage of life. There's still a lot to learn in life. I admit I still behave like a kid at times. There's nothing to feel embarrass about admitting the " childish kid in me"...

Like hello... I'm not even 25. Can still be accepted as young adult.

My 21st B'day Cake > I'm Forever 21 ;) 
Taken sometime ago. Definitely not this year ;)


I feel so blessed. Thank you Allah for allowing me to live this far... No such thing as birthday celebration this year just like the previous year. No mood for that. I only went out for a dinner with my close ones.

Being single and having friends whom are busy with their own schedules.. What a life I have? But never mind because I am happy with my life. Close ones are hoping that I will meet my Mr Right any sooner but I don't want to think about it yet. There are more other things to focus on.

B'day Dine-In 2012

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I feel the same just like any normal days. I don't feel special on this day. Without my mum's presence, I don't feel the excitement. A wish from the woman who gave birth to us is different as compared to the rest. Four years ago, I felt excited upon hearing a birthday wish from her but now, not anymore. I can no longer hear that voice ever again. I just wanna say thank you mum for giving birth to me and allowing me to see this world.  

This year, I barely received any wishes from people around me. Be it relatives or friends. In fact, none from my relatives. Despite the birthday reminder in facebook, none actually bother to post a birthday wish on my wall. Am I the only one who will keep posting birthday wishes to friends (if I happen to log into facebook)?  Always forgotten by the rest..  

Majority of them were my classmates and schoolmates. They are the ones who added me on facebook and the first one to forget about my existence.

Sometimes, I can't avoid the feeling of "disappointment" if none REMEMBERS despite the reminder in facebook. A simple wish will certainly make my day. But every year it's the same thing. I felt so "un-exist"...  I totally feel sad about it.

What else can I say? This is reality. That's life! When you have everything, everyone will acknowledge you and be your friend. But if you have nothing, only a few (close family and true friends) will stand by your side. Sometimes I am thankful that I only have a few friends rather than a bunch of fake people around. It's not quantity but quality that matters.

I'm ending this...

Thank you Allah for everything that you have given me. Thank you mum for giving birth to me. You are dearly missed by everyone. I truly yearn for your love  and presence. But I'm aware every beginning will came to and end. I'm not ready for your loss but I have to accept the reality. Missing you always :'(


Friday, May 4, 2012

Di Sebalik Kata Tersirat Maksud Tertentu



Petikan Dialog Dari Episod Terakhir Drama Cinta Buat Emelda. Tersirat Makna yang dalam! Sweet!

Aril Fatah:
Saya ada dua mata untuk melihat namun saya tak mampu untuk memandang
Saya ada dua tangan untuk memegang namun saya tak mampu untuk mencapai
Saya ada dua kaki untuk berjalan namun saya tak mampu untuk melangkah
Tapi saya cuma ada satu hati yang mana saya yakin mampu untuk mencintai awak sehingga ke akhir hayat saya

Emelda:
Kadang-kadang Allah berikan hujan & lumpur pada kita       
Sesekali Allah kurniakan petir
Kita jadi risau, sedih, takut
Tapi selepas hujan, rupa-rupanya Allah hadiahkan kita pelangi  





Di antara OST Dari drama CBE:
Kehilangan - Firman
Ku coba ungkap tabir ini
Kisah antara kau dan aku
Terpisahkan oleh ruang dan waktu
Menyudutkanmu meninggalkanku
Ku merasa tlah kehilangan
Cintamu yang tlah lama hilang
Kau pergi jauh karena salahku
Yang tak pernah menganggap kamu ada
Asmara memisahkan kita
Mengingatkanku pada dirimu
Gelora mengingatkanku
Bahwa cintamu tlah merasuk jantungku

Sejujurnya ku tak bisa
Hidup tanpa ada kamu aku gila
Seandainya kamu bisa
Mengulang kembali lagi cinta kita
Takkan ku sia-siakan kamu lagi





 Di Sebalik Kata Tersirat Maksud Tertentu. Renungkanlah...